L.O.V.E

aliyah knew who she was going to pick..
Her heart had decided..finally.
It was a rough couple of days..but she knew that he was the one..he was the love of her life..

This descion changed the course of her life..eight years later she still wonders if she had made the right choice..so many people's lives were effected..but i guess its a curse to live in a world always wondering "what if this happened or that"..anywys this is a story for some other time...

Aliyah picked up her phone and dialled his ever so familiar number
His warm comforting voice made her smile..
She had those butterflies..still..
He was wondering why she had been distant...and how he wants to see her as soon as possible.

Aliyah closed her phone..and looked at her closet..deciding what to wear..
She picked a yellow wrap dress ( since she was still tanned and the yellow looked good)
she wore tiny diamond earings..and her favorite Gina mini heels..

She met him in Starbux...
she came in before him..
she waited..she sent texts to her friends..telling them about her descion and where she was since they were wondering where she was..she had been lying low for the past couple of days not wanting to be influenced in anyone's opinion..


He walked in and Aliayh didnt notice him since she was busy texting the girls..
He was looking at her with such love for a minute until Aliyah felt someone's eyes on her..

Their eyes met..Her heart melted right there and then..Mohd had lavender roses in his hands for her...
An arrangment of 20 flowers..
he gave her the flowers..
and she was overwhelmed..
Blushing she asked: laish t3bt nafsik 7beby ..
Mohd: entay testahlain akthar..i brought u twenty flowers for the amazing twenty days that we've had so far..walah mat3arfen eshkether ana mistanis weyach..
Aliyah knew right there..this was her confirmation...she was right
she had made the right descion in choosing Mohd..
he was after all "7ub 7yaity"..
Aliyah: i love the flowers..walahh thank u so much
Mohd: btw i specfically picked lavender for a reason..bs i wont tel u...i'll wait until u find out..
Aliyah was curious..
what was the meaning behind lavender roses..
she knew that red was love..white was friendship..but she was unaware of the meaning of the lavender rose..
They had a nice coffee date filled with laughter and flirting:)

Mohd: 3aloyty agdar ad5en eshwaii baraaa oo ared...
Mohd never smoked infront of Aliyah or in her company since he belived it wasnt right..he just couldnt..
Aliyah, the easy-going girl laughed: ofcourse..bs i swear that i will let u cut down on these cigarettes..bekoun my new year resolution..
Mohd laughed...: ok baby..dgyeg o ared lach..

Aliyah was playing with her fone since she was waiting for Mohd..
She got a text from him..she wondered if he had sent it by accident..

Mohd's text :: its a ten! u r beautiful!

Aliayah laughed..she loved how romantic Mohd was..

she sent a txt back saying :: aham shay u like;) can u come back please..

Then she heard a laugh,,,Mohd was sitting next to her without her realizing...
Mohd: can u come back haa...ma 6walt 3laich
Aliyah laughed: maby ag3ed ebro7eee...
Mohd: walah i will alwys be with u..walah wala..
Aliyah: aya 3laik( blushing...her face was red)

They sat for what seemed like forever..just talking and catching up since Aliyah was a bit distant..Mohd took this oportunity since he had been waiting for it..
He liked having her back..
he knew she was going thru something but he didnt know what..

what was important that he had her back...

He walked her to her car...
and gave her a kiss on her forehead..
drive safely 7beebty..
dgeleee min to9lain elsakan

....
As Aliyah drove off..she wiped away her tears..she was happy..she was really happy
Her heart picked Mohd..
It felt good..she felt as if she was walking on air...

Isnt love the most beautiful feeling in the world??




** btw the meaning of a lavender rose is love at first sight (sigh..isnt Mohd romantic!!!!)


to be continued...



(sorry this took a while..bs i wasnt inspired..and as soon as i did.i wrote from my heart,and the words just flowed out of me...i love u all..thanks for being there for me xxx)

bittersweet memories..

** this post is dedicated to love..thanks for making me want to write again and not giving up..



Aliyah woke up the sound of her phone..
It was 3am her time..who would call at this time..

She saw it was a "no number" and decided not to pick it up fearing it was Fahad..The caller was persistent..The phone kept on ringing and ringing..until Aliyah had enough...

She picked up the phone and it was Fahad crying..
Fahad: Aliyahhhh ana a7bich laish etsween fenee chethee..ma tabenee y3ni..walah ana abeeech...laish mat7beneee...laishhhh..LAISH....( she could tell there was something wrong w his voice)

Aliyah: Fahad eshfeeek..ana ma rdait 3laik lal7eeeen..eshfeeeek... ent 3azez 3ali oo ent et3arf hal shay

Fahad sobbing: Aliyahhh lat'hdeeeeeee..rdely 3aliyah wala maggdar a3esh bedonich....
YOU know what...I HATE U FOR DOING THIS TO ME...I HATE U...I HATE UU

Aliyah was confused..what was wrong with him...and then she got her answer...
Someone took the phone from Fahad..It was Fahad's roomate and cousin Hamad.": Aliyah sorry elyoum Fahad nfsetaa t3bana ena nesateh 3eedmeladaa oo enach ma tbenaaa...(and then he said in a low voice visablly upset)...he went out with some guys today and he drank"

Aliyah was shocked..Fahad was conservative..doesnt go clubbing..doesnt have friends that are girls..doesnt drink or smoke..and prays and is deveoted..
Aliyah trying not to cry: fahad yeshrab?musta7eeel
Hamad: maby a7sesch bil thanb aw shay bs hay elii 9ar..trah uhwa e7bich oo sij e7s eb'3al6etaa.
Aliyah entay fakray feha eshwaii..ana a3zkum ethnantkum..oo atmanaa min kil galbyyy ena et9eren mert fahad..wala ana ma cheft a7la min q9at 7ubkum...

Aliyah went quiet..Hamad always said that about them..She knew that he was sincere and honest..She told him to take care of Fahad and to calm him down..and to msg her if anything else happened..She was genuinely concerned about Fahad....

The guilt she felt was unbelievable..she couldnt stop crying..What has she done to Fahad..He fell apart..and it was all because of her..She had never seen him like this..

She opened her bedside lamp and opened her drawer and looked for her diary..
She found it..she looked for Fahad's letters..

She and Fahad had made a pact before leaving Bahrain to their universities that they will send love letters to each other from time to time as a suprise..
It was Aliyah's idea..She thought it would make their long distance love stronger...
She opened up Fahad's letter..
He sent her pictures of his apartment..his car..him in starbux...

In the picture he was wearing her hat..it was a light blue armani exchange hat..She had given it to him before she left..she wanted to leave pieces of her with him so he doesnt forget her..

Had she jumped to conclusion and start a realtionship so soon with Mohd...She felt like she was a cheater and a liar..

She re-read parts of her diary...it was filled with memories of her and Fahad...she put down the diary and got her album of pics..
Her album was filled with her graduation pictures of her and Fahad since they went to the same highschool..

During their graduation..the first person to congraulate her was Fahad..they were both searching for each other in the crowded room after the ceramony..it was filled with happy parents..brothers and sisters of the graduates..And there was Fahad..looking for her..
His face lit up when he saw her..She was his world...he ran towards her and hugged her so hard that he literally picked her up...she loved him so much..
she cried while she hugged him and he reassured her that he was never going to leave her...ever..

They had so much history...

Is she willing to let it all go for Mohd...

Mohd

Fahad

Mohd

Fahad

who will it be
who will she pick...


Only time can tell....

to be continued....

**** this post was really hard to write..its charged with raw emotions..and i hope u guys feel what i have felt..

blast from the past..

The next couple of weeks were that of many dates,laughter and excitement for Mohd and Aliyah..the more they got to know each other..the more they fell deeper into this relationship..

Before heading to bed...Aliyah set her alarm clock for her 8am class tomorrow..Then, her phone vibrated..it was a "no number" she picked up hoping it was her cousin from the states as this was usually the time he would call her sometimes to check up on her..

To her complete suprise it was Fahad(( FYI: the ex from highskool he was mentioned in the first post))..she hadnt heard from him in over a month..why was he calling her now?
Fahad: 3aliya eshlonach..welaht 3laich
Aliyah was stunned..she didnt know what to say except: ewlhat 3laik el3afya..how r u
Fahad: 3aliya tadreen shno elyoum
Aliyah: was like laa..fe shay y3ni momhim
awkward silence
Fahad in a low voice: it's my birthday remember
Aliyah's heart sank..they had this deal her and Fahad..they switched each other's birthday's since Aliyah was two months older then Fahad..so technically (As if Fahad had the same exact thought)
Fahad: nesaity ur birthday elyoum...(in an attempt to make her remember their "special"joke..
Aliyah felt guilty ..

She had decided couple of months ago to end her relationship with her high school sweet heart since he was a ladies man..He kept talking to other girls..cheating and lying and she was done with all of that..It was hard to do..but she had to..

Aliyah: la walah kent bat9el lak bs tadree m3arf eltime difference baina ehnee oo bain ur place in australia..kila at5rb6 filwagt..

Fahad let it go..he didnt want to call her and fight..he missed that voice..and he didnt want to upset her..It was true when ppl say that u only realize what u have when its gone..and he sure did miss her..he wanted her back no matter what..

Fahad: Aliyah tarah ana lal7een a7bich oo ma nesatch..oo abeech et3arfeen ena fahad elawalanii ta'3yar..oo ana gilt 7g baitna 3anich..oo bs kent abee as2lech gbel ma baitna ekolmon ahlaich ena ana aby ayay a56bech oo abech etyeen etderseen m3ay fe australia..

Aliyah didnt see this coming at all..she was shocked..stunned..who was this Fahad? has he turned over a new leaf..has he finally realized her worth...
She didnt know what to say..
Fahad waited hoping to hear an excited yes..he was disappointed by her response or more appropriately no response at all..
Aliyah: listen Fahad i really do care about u..bs u just dropped a bomb on me and i dont know what to say
Fahad cutting off Aliyah: chofay entay take the time u want ana 7ather lach 6rshay msg ay wagt..aw et9lay fenee oo goliii ...ill be waiting for ur answer..bs Aliyah abeech et3afeen ana a7bech oo mabi ast'3ana 3anich..oo 7agich 3lai 3ala kil '3al6a swait'ha fe 7agich..oo allah shahed ena ana amoot feech oo batim amooch feech..bs entay 3a6enee fer9a oo b3wath lach..

Who was this guy? who was this caring and thoughful guy Aliyah thought..
She quickly ended the conversation with Fahad (promising him to call back with an answer) since she saw Mohd was waiting on the other line...

She talked to Mohd for a few minutes and excused herself early from the conversation by saying she had a "headache"
She felt guilty that she was lying to Mohd..she didnt want to mess up things between them..they had the talk about previous realtionships before and she told him about Fahad..she didnt know if she should tell him about this confusing phone call..

She needed the girls now..She had to let this out..
She went to Norah's room since the girls chilled there before going to sleep..
She saw that Rana and Reem were there..reading Glamour and discussing fashion tips..
Norah noticed how Aliyah was upset..and asked her' eshfeech 7beebty"
Aliyah couldnt hold it in for much longer..

She burst into tears..Rana and Reem were shocked at this..The girls tried comforting her..
Aliyah: imagine guys..Fahad called me..
Norah: UMBAIHHH..eshybeeeeh!! mo chenach hadetaaa min fatraaa..
Aliyah: eee..yabee eredleee..oo yabee etqadam leee...
Rana: relax 7abeebty..dont cry,..we will work things out..entay bs dry your tears..oo lets all sit..

The girls clusttered around Aliyah in the couch..They were all discussing the major event that happened and what she should do..
Aliyah: laish these things happen as soon as im over him..as soon as i have Mohd..laishhhh
Reem; the voice of reason: Baby girl dont say that..everything happens for a reason..entay sleep on it..mo a7ssan..everything looks better in the morning nfs ma egoloon
Aliyah laughed meekly..The girls were trying their best to cheer her up..She didnt want to dampen their moods and excused herself..
She hugged them all and kissed them goodnight..They were her "family" in university..They were all best friends..The four of them and their adventures..

She went to her bedroom..and looked for her favorite blanket( it was the coziet thing ever..she had a mini tug of war with her little sister back home and stole it) it reminded her of home..
She imagined she was in her old room back home..
She closed her eyes wishing she was in Bahrain..
Wishing she was in her bedroom..in her bed..with her family..
Hot Tears rolled down her cheeks..
what was she going to do...


to be continued;)

Tent'6r kelmat a7bik:*

Mohd held on to Aliyah's hand in the movies..

They kept talking..and ppl around them were getting annoyed at their obvious puppy love..
Mohd kept ttrying to talk b7raini..: mino egool BARAAAAAAAAAA3333..shno y3ni bar333...its barahhhh....!!
Aliyah kept on laughing..there were so many different words/language barriers btw them even though they were both Khaleeji which was so weird but intresting;)
she then responded back by saying: 3yal what the hell is SHAKO MAKOO..thats weird c'mon! u have to admit..walah if i say that in bahrain they will laugh at me..
Mohd laughed at her sense of humor..he liked a girl who talked back..ALiyah was loads of fun..he couldnt have asked for a better date!

They were at ease with one another as if they have known each forever it seemed..
People were telling them to be quiet..
So Mohd suggested: lets leave the cinema so we can go somewhere and talk
Aliyah: ee 5al namsheee..a7s eshwai oo b6rdonaaa..hhahahah
Mohd: e5asoon e6rdonaaa..3ady namshee wela 3ajbach elfilm?
Aliyah: min 9ijk..ma cheft shay min kether elth7k oo elsewalif el7elwa walah..

He smiled..

Mohd got up ..still holding her hands

They went in the car..Mohd opened up the car window that was above them...the cool breeze was what they needed..
Aliyah ofcourse was busy changing the music in the FM..hoping to find a good song..MohD was like : lets play this game..awal e'3nya etyey etkoun ehda2 miney lach ok...

Then..the sound of AbudlMajeed Abdulla's voice echoed in the car..

" tent'6er kelmat a7bik..shyfak mash'3ol feha..kil shay ebwagta 7eloo... laish mest3jel 3laihaaaaaa"

Mohd paused and said: a7b hal e'3nya..khals kil ma asm3haa bethkernii feech
Aliyah: awal mara asm3haa...i like it..thanks 3ala hal ehda2 el7elo...
Mohd: sij e3jbach?

Aliyah: i love it...is that better?

They were heading back to the university..Mohd had to drop Aliyah home since it was getting late..
Mohd: e9eer next time we have dinner?
Aliyah: ee akeed..elyoum l2ana 6wlna fil sewalif mafee wagt;) enshala next time i see u

Mohd: Meta next time?
Aliyah: mmm..mdryy...(she had no clue what to say..wishing she can say Tomorow but she didnt want to come off as too eager)
Mohd: eshrayich bacher?
Aliyah: ( wanting to play hard to get) how about sat after class a7san?

Mohd: done:)

Aliyah thanked Mohd for the wonderful date..and left the car..

As she was walking to her room..She had a big smile on her face...She felt like she was walking on air...Her knees were literally weak...She thought that at any time her legs would weaken and collapse..She made sure that this didnt happen since Mohd waited for her until she got in the dorms..
She had never felt this way..ever about any guy...
no one comes close to Mohd...

She was in love..
This was the real deal she thought..

She had fallen for him..
He had fallen for her..


Mohd dialled a familiar number he knew by heart
Mohd heard a loving voice on the other end" wldy eshlonak?
Mohd: eb5air as2al 3anich
Um Mohd laughing: es2alat 3anik el3afyaa..ha esh3ndak mistanis elaa achoof? doum enshalaaa
Mohd: Yuma..a7b wa7da m3ay bil jam3a...

** SILENCE**

His mom laughed..Mohd was her favorite she had to admit from her sons..They were so close which made her glad that he told her everything about himself..

Um Mohd: walah ana a7bha b3ad elii egdart e6yi7 wldy elthgeeel..

They both laughed..Mohd was so strict and serious when it came to girls that his Mom knew that this girl was special..

He told her all about her for the next 20min or so...


Aliyah went to bed with a smile
Mohd went to bed with a bigger smile....


To be continued.........

date #1..

one day later...
Aliyah couldnt resist the urge she HAD to msg him..the girls told her not to..but she couldnt help herself..
She only thought with her heart..and this is what her heart told her to do..

She was sitting in her room..the girls were there..watching old episodes of FRIENDS..she looked at her fone..and she knew she will have to msg him now..
She sent him a text with just a" hi :) "
Literally two seconds later, her fone beeped..Mohd sent " 7raaaaaam 3laich na6rach min ams..a7la msg walah"
Aliyah smiled such a wide smile that the girls were poking one another and staring at her..

Rana shouted" I CANT BELIVE U..U MSGED HIM HA"
Aliyah just laughed..she was caught..she was so transparent with her feelings..she was an open book..and her friends knew that about her..
Norah" ma 9adig..3afya 3al sha6ra..ee b3ad laih metaa tan6er..kaifha kaifhaa..zain swaitayy..dzaitay msg?"
Aliyah" ee twnee 6rsht magdart awyid ro7eee..and laughing..
Reem " aham shay entay mistansaaa so i guess what u did is ok"
The girls were debating about the whole issue..going over the msg and what she should do next..while Aliyah's mind was elsewhere..
She then saw

"mOhD calling"

she screamed.
All the girls went quiet..and one by one laughed...Norah shouted" PICK UPPPP YAlaaaaaaa!!!!"

Aliyah went running to the other room and picked up the fone..
out of breath she said "aloo"
Mohd: 3aloyty sh5barich"
Aliyah couldnt think straight..really..it was that bad..
Aliyah:mmm...(( she couldnt speak ))
Mohd kept on talking " sorry did i call in a bad time"
Aliyah(gaining her sense of speech): heheh afaa 3laik..wagtee lak...
**silenceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee**

Mohd: eb kil 9ara7aaa 3daltay mazajey elyoum eb hal 7achii el7elo..bt3wad tarah adg 3laich kil eshwai etha chethee..
Aliyah: u can call whenever u want..( blushing..who was this straightforward girl..she was suprised with herself..)
Mohd: thanks and i will;) ha eshrayich bacher thurs enrooo7 movie?
Aliyah: Perfect..

they talked for a few more minutes about the details of their thursday date..

Aliyah went to the girls in the other room..they all went silent when she came in...
Aliayah then smiled widely" thurs. cinema date"

The girls were all shouting with excitement..everyone kept talking and Aliyah didnt hear a word..she was in la la land..thinking about Mohd and what to wear..and how amazing their short but eventful conversation went
this was major news..
it was after all,Aliyah's first date.


Thursday:

Aliyah looked at herself in the mirror..she wore a short black dress..as Rana (her best friend) told her:nobody goes wrong in a black dress..its flattering and classy!
So Aliyah took her friend's advice and wore her favorite form-fitting black dress..
She was really tanned since she and the girls went to the beach a day before her big date..she wanted to impress him so much..

She let her hair down in big bouncy curls..and wore her favorite heart-shaped tiffany earrings..
Nervously she waited for his call..he was supposed to pick her up...
As if mohd read her mind..he called her..

She went outside..and found him in his jeep..|( she added another point in her head..plus one since he had such a macho guy's car)
She got in and the car smelled of his perfume..she got in and said very shyly "hi"

Mohd was wearing a Ralph lauren red polo shirt and diesel jeans...He looked good..he had a dirty look going on ( which she absoultely loved) he looked so hot with a beard on...she was hooked;)

Mohd: 7yallah 3aloyty
Aliyah blused..she loved her new nickname..it was so enduring and sincere...no one has ever called her that...she really did feel special...
She smiled..she didnt know whatt to say...
Mohd took her hand into his..he wanted to..he couldnt help himself..he felt close to her..

Mohd was known to be shy with the girls..He was the good guy as his friends call him..he always told his friends..the girl that i decide to talk to..ill marry her ..i dont care what u think..i dont want to waste my time.. { imagine there are guys who think like that!!!}

Aliyah smiled..she had goosebumps all over from his touch..she liked how he held her hand as if he was protecting her..
They talked while Aliyah kept on changing the FM..Mohd liked how comfortable Aliyah felt with him..
They laughed..and talked about everything..what they like..about their family..about their senior year...about their countries..Aliyah was very Bahraini as he was so Kuwaitiy..

Before heading to the movie..Mohd looked at Aliyah and let out a loud sigh..
Aliyah: eshfeeek?
Mohd: i just want to tell u that i like u Aliya..really like u..and..mmm..i never felt this way..entay '3air..mat3arfen eshlon dshaitay galbay..bs 7bait enach et3arfen hal shay"

Aliyah's heart melted..his words were so genuine..she squeezed his hand..(since they were still holding hands)
Aliyah: i feel exactly the same way..

Mohd's face completly changed and lit up..those six words meant everything to him..

He was definetly calling his mom after his date..


TO be continued....

put life on hold!!!!

Aliyah was still upset at the fact that Mohd still hasn't asked for her number..what was taking him so long she wondered!!
She and the girls analyzed the situation over and over again..
she knew he was interested but what was the catch..!!

She had a really tough economics midterm..she didnt study at all..she was thinking about him all the time..she has fallen for him..butterflies and all..Aliyah never felt this way about any guy..
she sings along to 3bdul7aleem songs..she cant sleep..she's smiling all the time..to a point where her friends have noticed a serious change in the way she looks at life..she was no longer the little grouch of the group..she was the happy bumblebee;) (her new nickname with the girls:P)

she went to her eco. class and looked nervously around at the room..ppl were reading and going over their notes..she ,on the other hand was thinking about Mohd..
Her professor handed out the midterms to everyone..
Aliyah looked at it and her heart sunk...
she knew nothing..it was four pages..she answered a question here and there..and that was it..
she should have been better prepared..
but i guess she had somewhat of a good reason..
this was her first time in love..she cant possibly tell life to put her eco midterm on hold or can she;)

so thats what she did exactly..
with a big smile and her new positive outlook..with merely fifteen minutes to the start of the midterm Aliyah walked out..

The whole room looked at her like she was insane since it was UNHEARD of for someone to leave thaaaaat early in an eco midterm..

Aliyah didnt care..she will drop the class and take it again next semester..This crush wont WAIT!

so..

she goes looking for Mohd..she knew his schedule..he was supposed to be in the architecure building working on his drawings for class..

she goes there..and to her luck Mohd was there working on his drawings..:):):)
She goes up to him..he looks up..and blushes...
"Alooyaaaa"
Aliya: Mohd..eshrayik eb my suprise?
Mohd: walah a7laa suprise malat elyoum
Aliya blushes..( seriosuly i was like three different shades of red here)
Mohd and Aliya talk and talk..sitting in their usual spot in the architecure buidling on university campus..
Students were walking by and looking at them...you know how ppl can tell.. they were more than friends..everyone saw the sparks..
She was sitting next to him..inhaling his amazing perfume..he sat so close to her that he smelt her scent( she alwys had this vanilla/3oud scent) He loved that..he was really falling for her..

Mohd cleared his throut and said" Alooya may5alif i take ur number 3shan we decide about the movie..umm..u know..in the weekend..gilna last time ..."
Aliyah cut him short: how about u give me ur number a7san ( supposedly i wanted to have the upper hand in this realtionship)
Mohd gave me his number but i didnt give him mine!

Mohd smiled ( and his dimples appeared): na6rach tarah edgeneliii
Aliyah: akeed i will..yala ba5leek itkamil sho'3lik oo talk to u later i guess..and she laughed..
she walked away..she knew he was looking at her..she felt his stare on her..she turned..and she was right..Mohd was mesmirized looking at her ( so true by the way..she knew she had him right there and then..)
she smiled..and he smiled back...


so this was love..
this was when their relationship took off..or soared as you can say..
She really loved him..
she didnt know how much until it ended..


** more on offical cinema date #1 in the next post..