Major Drama in Beirut International Airport...

**dedicated to Cupid..thanks for motivating me to write..this is for u.

pls guys i hope to see your comments..i really do need your comments to keep going...please tell me if ur reading this
xxx


Aliyah reached BEIRUT safe and sound el7imdila.
She was wearing as usual one of her juicys since they were the only way to travel..
sHe had zero makeup on and was wearing only her fav aviator ray-bans to hide her face..
While she was on the plan she was reminiscing about her old times with Fahad..
She was in an inner conflict..
She didnt know what she wants
As for Mohd she didnt reply to his msg..she wasnt going to forgive so easily for letting her go...

as soon as she reached for her luggage..she went to look for a familiar face in the crowd..
To her utter surprise
He was there
He was actually waiting for her..

Where were the girls...they had told her that they will be picking her up
But instead he was there
How was that possible..

Aliyah lifted her glasses to take a better look
was she day dreaming
He was smiling so bright and with such love that the ppl around them were looking ..She walked slowly to him..
Step by step..
He was only looking at her
she was only looking at him

She felt her heart flutter with joy,happiness and so much love..real love..not that infatuation she felt she was in..

She couldnt wait any longer..
and ran to him from excitement..
She wasnt going to play hard to get
She had him
she always did

he picked her up..and carried her..she twirled as if they were filming a romantic movie..
She hugged him so tightly
And he hugged her back with all his strength..

Aliyah: Fahad..
Fahad: e3yoon fahad
Aliyah with tears rolling down her cheeks..: u came all the way from Australia for me
Fahad: cheftay eshlon ele e7bch ma ehdech
Aliyah felt a pang of guilt about Mohd..she completly disregarded that idea until...

She saw from the corner of her eyes while buried in Fahad's toned shoulders..there
was Mohd..waiting..
he looked hurt,,betrayed..
their eyes met
and Aliyah looked away...

What are the odds of having them both in the airport..She didnt acknowledge Mohd since he had hurt her and let her go
He was the one who didnt want her
so what was he doing there..
She didnt care
She was with the right person..
Fahad came all the way from Australia to prove his life..
Mohd let her go just because of his friends..he didnt see her as a future..Fahad did...Fahad truly cared about her..

She saw Mohd walk away and take one last look at the reunited lover..

Mohd was devastated...
who was this guy? was this her ex? was it possible he came all the way from Australia or was it just a school friend...if it was just a friend she would have acknowledged atleast his presence..he wanted to surprise her
Why did he ruin the best thing that happened to him since moving to Beirut to study..why did he listen to his friends
He had lost Aliyah once and for all..she didnt want him
she didnt love him..he was sure that she realized that he was just not worth it anymore..
i should have done more
i should have not let her go that easily..

Mohd was trying to hold back his tears..
what the hell was wrong with him..he had never acted this mushy towards a girl
she was different and he had lost her..
and he was mad at her
how could she move on so quickly..or was it just a friend..
he was confused beyond reason..
he needed help..

Mohd reached for his cell and dialled his older sister's number,Maha
He began telling her all the details of what had happened..
His sister listed carefully to each word Mohd was saying and could tell he was clearly very upset..
Maha: Mohd pls latz3al 3lai bs let me tell u something..ent u broke up with her for no good reason..akeed ehya ma rdat 3la ur call n msg because how can she guarantee herself you wont do it again..you cant tell a girll u love her and u tell her about some sort of future and u drop her..
I know im being tough on u bs im telling u this fom a girl's point of view
Mohd listed intently to what his sister was saying..he knew she was right after all
Maha continued: How can you say you love her o etswey feha what u did
Mohd defending himself: y3ni elwa7ed maha ma ya'3l6..
Maha felt bad and wanted to take back what she said: sorry 7amood mo qasdy anarfzik..bs ur right..choof hay ele chefta bil m6ar most likely her ex from Australia..shkla lal7een he wants her..u told me ena they were serious..very serious 9a7
Mohd: yes they were ( with such saddness that Maha tried very hard not to cry..she hated seeing her baby brother upset)
Maha: 7beeby..choof maybe he came to visit her..mo akeed they got back together..trah u should try since the other guy is trying,...win her back.let her fall in love with u again..if u really think she's the one for u...its up to u..trah u can change this ..
Mohd listened carefully...

Maha was absouletly right..he was going to fight back
He wanted his Aliyah back
he wasnt going to let that scum bag of an ex get his Aliyah..

He thanked Maha for her advice and headed to his apartment as he blasted the volume and was lost in thought as Nawal and Fathel's A7wil was playing..He was thinking about Aliyah and what will he do next...

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This song is dedicated to anyone who is missing someone they love:
i miss u mr.x ( wont tell u who this is until later)

ابحكيلك عن احوالي وابيك تشوف لي صرفه
خيالك دايم في بالي .. واحس بشيء ما اعرفه
يوديني الفكر ويجيب .. وشوقي لك معنيني
لأنك لما عني تغيب .. تضيق الدنيا في عيني
وش احكي لك .. وش افسر .. عن احوالي وعن علومي ؟
كثر شوقي لك تصور .. اشوفك حتى في نومي
تعب حالي وقلبي ضاق .. يشيلك سر في صدري
وأنا من زحمة الأشواق .. اخاف اموت وماتدري
ومن حبك وتأثيرك .. فؤادي ينبض بطاريك
صعب يهوى أحد غيرك .. وهو ميت اساسا فيك
وش احكي لك وش افسر عن احوالي وعن علومي ؟
كثر شوقي لك تصور اشوفك حتى في نومي
...

to my readers

To my readers,

i have noticed that only a few of you post your thoughts to what i write..i feel as if the rest dont like what im writing..feel free to tell me if its getting a bit slow or dull..i feel like not so many ppl are really reading it anyway..
can you guys please motivate me to write?
i need your help..

love u

:***

can things possibly get even more complicated.???

Aliyah woke up and looked around..this wasn't her dorm room..it was her room in Bahrain..she was filled with happiness..she was home..it felt so good..she woke up with a smile..
Her fone was next to her..she saw a bunch of missed calls from Reem,Rana,and Noora..obviously they were worried about her since she took off by surprise to Bahrain
Also, the most important call..was that of Mohd's
Aliyah gasped when she saw his number..
was she imagining..
She looked at her fone again..it was Mohd's number..she felt her heart flutter..she had butterflies..
Mohd was worried about her obviously since he didnt see her in their usual morning meeting place..
She didnt know what to do...she will make him wait..she wasnt going to budge..

She got up..went to the bathroom for a long relaxing shower..she came out of the bathroom ..and sat infront of her dresser..She looked at the different kinds of creams.lotions,makeup she had,,she loved smelling and looking her best..
She put on her different scents..( mostly vanilla mixed with Arabian oud)..then put her fav victoria secret body cream..amber romance..she loved that smell...
She wore comfy slacks and a t-shirt..

Aliyah called the girls one by one and explained why she was M.IA(missing in action)..
SHe told them about her breakup and how he had called her..
All of them told her to not call back...
Aliyah was confused...should she just ignore his call..or call back and act normal..


A knock on her door "woke" her up and it was her Mother wanting her to come sit with the family for their usual lunch..


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On the other side, Mohd was worried..Aliyah still hadnt called him back..was she ok? was she ignoring him...he hated this..
He hated wondering..
He couldnt concentrate in class..ALiyah was all he was thinking about..
He had second doubts abt his desicion to break it off with her...
She was a great girl and she had never done anything wrong...any guy would be lucky to have her..she was pretty..sweet..and so charming..and they clicked..

He sent her a msg" aliyah i miss u"
He felt better after he sent that msg..
Atleast now she will now that he is missing her...

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Aliyah went to her room..and looked for her fone..there was a msg notification..she looked at it..and was shocked..
What was wrong with Mohd,,with these mixed signals...one day hes missing her,the next hes ending it with her because of her nationality..
She wasnt going to budge..he had hurt her..
she wasnt a game in his hand,,
She did what any girl would in her place...

she ignored the msg,,,and carried on with her day ...

..Before going to bed..she got a weird number..
Aliyah: im sorry but who is this
unknown: this is Fahad eshd3waa aliyaaa gilna nesatneee 3ad mo chethee
Aliyah: sorry fahad bs m3rf this number..how r u
Fahad beginning to warm up: im ok,..entay eshlonah..min zeman 3anich..gilt i will call n say hi bs
Fahad assumed that she was going to end this conversation as fast as possible as usual but to his surprise...
Aliyah: walah feek el5air fahad..hows australiaa and ur studies..update me..
Fahad began talking about his day and about the usual stuff..he kept telling her funny stories about his roomates..
Aliyah laughed and felt at ease..
it was so easy talking to him..he knows her so well..he felt like family to her..she longed for that comfort
They talked for nearly two hours..before Aliyah excused herself since she felt tired..

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Fahad was beyond estatic..he had to tell someone..he went to his roomate and cousin's room Hamad...
Hamad: esfheek chethee shag el7alj..
Fahad: gool min kent a7acheee fil telfoon
Hamad: laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..sijjjj
Fahad: eeeee..sij sij sij meshtag lehaaa...
Hamad was really happy..he loved seeing his baby cousin happy for once.he was so down lately that everyone around them was worried about his well-being especially after the drinking incident..Hamad liked Aliyah..he thought that their love story was special..he was alwys a bit jealous about how lucky Fahad to have someone as loving as Aliyah..
Fahad rambled on and on about his fone call with Aliyah until Hamad had to kick him out of his room since he wanted to study for his test..

Fahad went to his room..smiling ear to ear..he went to is dresser and just stared at their picture..
..it was of their graduation day..Aliyah and him.she looked so beautiful...god she's so beautiful.i miss her..i love her..i want her with me..i will do anything in this world to have her back,,she is everything..everything to me..
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Aliyah slept on and off..
thinking about Fahad..and about Mohd..
how is it possible that she was thinking about two guys at the same time...
Fahad was her past
Mohd was her present
but who was going to be her future...

Mohd let go of her so easily..something Fahd would never do..

why god are things so complicated..please let this pass..i just want to be happy..
just to be happy...

"khyalek daym ef bali"

he was all she was thinking about..
she was all he was thinking about..

Mohd sat quietly in his apartment going over what had just happened..did he make the right decision by ending things with Aliyah..he loves her..but the guys were right..she wasn't Kuwaiti and it was an issue to them..they kept telling him how hard it would be to fall in love with a person not from the same country,,Mohd trusted his new-found friends.he believed that they were older and wiser..they understood relationships,,
This was his first serious relationship with a girl..he was young and reckless as they said...
This was the best decision in the long run they said...he kept repeating those words over and over trying to convince himself..
Mohd went to bed that night..upset and alone..he missed her warm voice..this was "their"time..he would call her before going to bed and they would talk for hours and hours..
Before falling asleep, her image lingered in his mind...

On the other hand, Aliyah wasnt able to sleep..she kept waking up..she felt her head was about to explode..she had cried till there were no tears left..she had a headache from crying so much..
She was upset at how fast Mohd had let her go..was this his so called love for her..
She wanted to go home..
She picked up the phone and called the airport to ask for the earliest flights to Bahrain..
...The earliest flight was at 8am...since she wasnt sleeping she decided to book this flight and go home..she wanted nothing to remind her of Mohd..
She got up and started packing..just one carry on...she would miss some classes..but this was worth it..she would go for a 5day break( including the weekend)..
She wore her favorite juicy's and sat back on her bed..
will he realize that she's not in university tomorrow.will he worry..will he call her..her head was filled with questions that she had no answers for..
She sent texts to her best friends telling them she was going to Bahrain last minute since she knew they will be worrying about her...

hours later....

Aliyah was home...it was a short 3 hr flight Beirut to Bahrain...
She was back in her room,,her bed....she felt a hundred times better already..
She let out a loud sigh filled with emotions..
She needed to sleep..
Few minutes passed and Aliyah was sound asleep..exhausted..mentally,physically, and most important.. emotionally...

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Mohd went to class..this was going to be awkward since this was his usual meeting spot with ALiyah...
Aliyah's classmates walked out...
Mohd waited for her..
He wanted to talk to her...to apologize only..
He waited..
He went to the classroom and she wasn't there..
That was odd..where was ALiyah..she wasn't in class..

Was she ok?
Was she that upset?
Did she just blow off class so she doesn't see him? Nooo..he knew her too well Aliyah wasnt childish...
What can it be..
Mohd kept thinking and getting more worried more the minute...
If she was upset because of him..he wouldn't be able to handle it..
It was good that he didn't see her..
He would have fallen apart..
And would have begged for her forgiveness..
He didnt care..
he will call her...just to check that is..
He called her...it rang and rang..with no answer..the weird thing was it was long distance..he could tell from the ring..
Where was she..
Was she ok..

He had to stop thinking about her..
This wasn't helping..

2 good 2 be true..

she kept repeating the words he had told her previosuly..
he would tell her: we will be together for eight semesters..
Aliya wondered what he meant..
Mohd laughed and saidd: all through jam3a since each year has two semesters..and enshala ya rab after as well..
This was Mohd's first refrence to thier future..
Aliyah was on air..Mohd said the cutest things..they werent cheesy..what he said is from his heart..and goes directly to hers..
Aliyah was in love..real love..

Tears rolled down her face..
How could she believe him..Mohd was different..he had changed..he had no longer wanted to be with her.
He called her up one day ..completley out of the blue: Aliyah this is really hard for me.bs i dont think we can be together..i can only be with girl i can marry..and ur not Kuwaiti..so im sorry..there is no future between us...i hope you understand..and i hope we can be friends...

Aliyah was so stunned that she mumbled: yeah..mm..ok...

Mohd was taken back by how cold Aliyah was..
Aliyah wasnt cold with him..she was so hurt and taken back that these were the only words she was able to say at that time..
She replayed that phonecall over and over..wishing she could have said something..but maybe it was for the better after all..he didnt want her..and she didnt want to beg..

Aliyah noticed that for the past month or so Mohd was acting different and aloof..she assumed he was stressed out with work..What was different in him was that he made new friends..all guys from Kuwait..Had they talked him out of dating her...was that possible..
This was he only new change in him..and it wasnt as if there was another girl in the picture..Mohd distanced himself from the girls in unversity with the exception of her and her friends...
Her innocent..caring..loving Mohd had changed.
He had left her..


Aliyah couldnt stop crying..she hugged her pink quilt..thinking to herself..should she go home for the weekend..she needed a break..and Bahrain cheers her up..
She didnt know what to do..
How could she be so blind..
How can she not see this coming..

She had trusted him
and he had let her down..

She was furious at him..
She opened her drawer and found his letters...Whenver Mohd was bored in class..he would write her a small love letter..she tore them all apart..ALL lies...lies..

She shouldnt have dated him
She was wrong in picking him.
she was soooo wrong..and she will pay the price for this..

She got a text..
it was Mohd..
sending a title of a song..
"abdulla rwasheed..e3feeny"

was this his way of degrading her more...

her life had officially ended..

She would never be the same again..

Its so weird how ppl that you dont know for such a long time have an impact so great..

She didnt know that he will continue playing with her heart for years to come..

to be continued...


enjoy xoxoxo

p.s guys..what would you want me to talk about next..:P continue with what happens..or...

L.O.V.E

aliyah knew who she was going to pick..
Her heart had decided..finally.
It was a rough couple of days..but she knew that he was the one..he was the love of her life..

This descion changed the course of her life..eight years later she still wonders if she had made the right choice..so many people's lives were effected..but i guess its a curse to live in a world always wondering "what if this happened or that"..anywys this is a story for some other time...

Aliyah picked up her phone and dialled his ever so familiar number
His warm comforting voice made her smile..
She had those butterflies..still..
He was wondering why she had been distant...and how he wants to see her as soon as possible.

Aliyah closed her phone..and looked at her closet..deciding what to wear..
She picked a yellow wrap dress ( since she was still tanned and the yellow looked good)
she wore tiny diamond earings..and her favorite Gina mini heels..

She met him in Starbux...
she came in before him..
she waited..she sent texts to her friends..telling them about her descion and where she was since they were wondering where she was..she had been lying low for the past couple of days not wanting to be influenced in anyone's opinion..


He walked in and Aliayh didnt notice him since she was busy texting the girls..
He was looking at her with such love for a minute until Aliyah felt someone's eyes on her..

Their eyes met..Her heart melted right there and then..Mohd had lavender roses in his hands for her...
An arrangment of 20 flowers..
he gave her the flowers..
and she was overwhelmed..
Blushing she asked: laish t3bt nafsik 7beby ..
Mohd: entay testahlain akthar..i brought u twenty flowers for the amazing twenty days that we've had so far..walah mat3arfen eshkether ana mistanis weyach..
Aliyah knew right there..this was her confirmation...she was right
she had made the right descion in choosing Mohd..
he was after all "7ub 7yaity"..
Aliyah: i love the flowers..walahh thank u so much
Mohd: btw i specfically picked lavender for a reason..bs i wont tel u...i'll wait until u find out..
Aliyah was curious..
what was the meaning behind lavender roses..
she knew that red was love..white was friendship..but she was unaware of the meaning of the lavender rose..
They had a nice coffee date filled with laughter and flirting:)

Mohd: 3aloyty agdar ad5en eshwaii baraaa oo ared...
Mohd never smoked infront of Aliyah or in her company since he belived it wasnt right..he just couldnt..
Aliyah, the easy-going girl laughed: ofcourse..bs i swear that i will let u cut down on these cigarettes..bekoun my new year resolution..
Mohd laughed...: ok baby..dgyeg o ared lach..

Aliyah was playing with her fone since she was waiting for Mohd..
She got a text from him..she wondered if he had sent it by accident..

Mohd's text :: its a ten! u r beautiful!

Aliayah laughed..she loved how romantic Mohd was..

she sent a txt back saying :: aham shay u like;) can u come back please..

Then she heard a laugh,,,Mohd was sitting next to her without her realizing...
Mohd: can u come back haa...ma 6walt 3laich
Aliyah laughed: maby ag3ed ebro7eee...
Mohd: walah i will alwys be with u..walah wala..
Aliyah: aya 3laik( blushing...her face was red)

They sat for what seemed like forever..just talking and catching up since Aliyah was a bit distant..Mohd took this oportunity since he had been waiting for it..
He liked having her back..
he knew she was going thru something but he didnt know what..

what was important that he had her back...

He walked her to her car...
and gave her a kiss on her forehead..
drive safely 7beebty..
dgeleee min to9lain elsakan

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As Aliyah drove off..she wiped away her tears..she was happy..she was really happy
Her heart picked Mohd..
It felt good..she felt as if she was walking on air...

Isnt love the most beautiful feeling in the world??




** btw the meaning of a lavender rose is love at first sight (sigh..isnt Mohd romantic!!!!)


to be continued...



(sorry this took a while..bs i wasnt inspired..and as soon as i did.i wrote from my heart,and the words just flowed out of me...i love u all..thanks for being there for me xxx)

bittersweet memories..

** this post is dedicated to love..thanks for making me want to write again and not giving up..



Aliyah woke up the sound of her phone..
It was 3am her time..who would call at this time..

She saw it was a "no number" and decided not to pick it up fearing it was Fahad..The caller was persistent..The phone kept on ringing and ringing..until Aliyah had enough...

She picked up the phone and it was Fahad crying..
Fahad: Aliyahhhh ana a7bich laish etsween fenee chethee..ma tabenee y3ni..walah ana abeeech...laish mat7beneee...laishhhh..LAISH....( she could tell there was something wrong w his voice)

Aliyah: Fahad eshfeeek..ana ma rdait 3laik lal7eeeen..eshfeeeek... ent 3azez 3ali oo ent et3arf hal shay

Fahad sobbing: Aliyahhh lat'hdeeeeeee..rdely 3aliyah wala maggdar a3esh bedonich....
YOU know what...I HATE U FOR DOING THIS TO ME...I HATE U...I HATE UU

Aliyah was confused..what was wrong with him...and then she got her answer...
Someone took the phone from Fahad..It was Fahad's roomate and cousin Hamad.": Aliyah sorry elyoum Fahad nfsetaa t3bana ena nesateh 3eedmeladaa oo enach ma tbenaaa...(and then he said in a low voice visablly upset)...he went out with some guys today and he drank"

Aliyah was shocked..Fahad was conservative..doesnt go clubbing..doesnt have friends that are girls..doesnt drink or smoke..and prays and is deveoted..
Aliyah trying not to cry: fahad yeshrab?musta7eeel
Hamad: maby a7sesch bil thanb aw shay bs hay elii 9ar..trah uhwa e7bich oo sij e7s eb'3al6etaa.
Aliyah entay fakray feha eshwaii..ana a3zkum ethnantkum..oo atmanaa min kil galbyyy ena et9eren mert fahad..wala ana ma cheft a7la min q9at 7ubkum...

Aliyah went quiet..Hamad always said that about them..She knew that he was sincere and honest..She told him to take care of Fahad and to calm him down..and to msg her if anything else happened..She was genuinely concerned about Fahad....

The guilt she felt was unbelievable..she couldnt stop crying..What has she done to Fahad..He fell apart..and it was all because of her..She had never seen him like this..

She opened her bedside lamp and opened her drawer and looked for her diary..
She found it..she looked for Fahad's letters..

She and Fahad had made a pact before leaving Bahrain to their universities that they will send love letters to each other from time to time as a suprise..
It was Aliyah's idea..She thought it would make their long distance love stronger...
She opened up Fahad's letter..
He sent her pictures of his apartment..his car..him in starbux...

In the picture he was wearing her hat..it was a light blue armani exchange hat..She had given it to him before she left..she wanted to leave pieces of her with him so he doesnt forget her..

Had she jumped to conclusion and start a realtionship so soon with Mohd...She felt like she was a cheater and a liar..

She re-read parts of her diary...it was filled with memories of her and Fahad...she put down the diary and got her album of pics..
Her album was filled with her graduation pictures of her and Fahad since they went to the same highschool..

During their graduation..the first person to congraulate her was Fahad..they were both searching for each other in the crowded room after the ceramony..it was filled with happy parents..brothers and sisters of the graduates..And there was Fahad..looking for her..
His face lit up when he saw her..She was his world...he ran towards her and hugged her so hard that he literally picked her up...she loved him so much..
she cried while she hugged him and he reassured her that he was never going to leave her...ever..

They had so much history...

Is she willing to let it all go for Mohd...

Mohd

Fahad

Mohd

Fahad

who will it be
who will she pick...


Only time can tell....

to be continued....

**** this post was really hard to write..its charged with raw emotions..and i hope u guys feel what i have felt..