bittersweet memories..

** this post is dedicated to love..thanks for making me want to write again and not giving up..



Aliyah woke up the sound of her phone..
It was 3am her time..who would call at this time..

She saw it was a "no number" and decided not to pick it up fearing it was Fahad..The caller was persistent..The phone kept on ringing and ringing..until Aliyah had enough...

She picked up the phone and it was Fahad crying..
Fahad: Aliyahhhh ana a7bich laish etsween fenee chethee..ma tabenee y3ni..walah ana abeeech...laish mat7beneee...laishhhh..LAISH....( she could tell there was something wrong w his voice)

Aliyah: Fahad eshfeeek..ana ma rdait 3laik lal7eeeen..eshfeeeek... ent 3azez 3ali oo ent et3arf hal shay

Fahad sobbing: Aliyahhh lat'hdeeeeeee..rdely 3aliyah wala maggdar a3esh bedonich....
YOU know what...I HATE U FOR DOING THIS TO ME...I HATE U...I HATE UU

Aliyah was confused..what was wrong with him...and then she got her answer...
Someone took the phone from Fahad..It was Fahad's roomate and cousin Hamad.": Aliyah sorry elyoum Fahad nfsetaa t3bana ena nesateh 3eedmeladaa oo enach ma tbenaaa...(and then he said in a low voice visablly upset)...he went out with some guys today and he drank"

Aliyah was shocked..Fahad was conservative..doesnt go clubbing..doesnt have friends that are girls..doesnt drink or smoke..and prays and is deveoted..
Aliyah trying not to cry: fahad yeshrab?musta7eeel
Hamad: maby a7sesch bil thanb aw shay bs hay elii 9ar..trah uhwa e7bich oo sij e7s eb'3al6etaa.
Aliyah entay fakray feha eshwaii..ana a3zkum ethnantkum..oo atmanaa min kil galbyyy ena et9eren mert fahad..wala ana ma cheft a7la min q9at 7ubkum...

Aliyah went quiet..Hamad always said that about them..She knew that he was sincere and honest..She told him to take care of Fahad and to calm him down..and to msg her if anything else happened..She was genuinely concerned about Fahad....

The guilt she felt was unbelievable..she couldnt stop crying..What has she done to Fahad..He fell apart..and it was all because of her..She had never seen him like this..

She opened her bedside lamp and opened her drawer and looked for her diary..
She found it..she looked for Fahad's letters..

She and Fahad had made a pact before leaving Bahrain to their universities that they will send love letters to each other from time to time as a suprise..
It was Aliyah's idea..She thought it would make their long distance love stronger...
She opened up Fahad's letter..
He sent her pictures of his apartment..his car..him in starbux...

In the picture he was wearing her hat..it was a light blue armani exchange hat..She had given it to him before she left..she wanted to leave pieces of her with him so he doesnt forget her..

Had she jumped to conclusion and start a realtionship so soon with Mohd...She felt like she was a cheater and a liar..

She re-read parts of her diary...it was filled with memories of her and Fahad...she put down the diary and got her album of pics..
Her album was filled with her graduation pictures of her and Fahad since they went to the same highschool..

During their graduation..the first person to congraulate her was Fahad..they were both searching for each other in the crowded room after the ceramony..it was filled with happy parents..brothers and sisters of the graduates..And there was Fahad..looking for her..
His face lit up when he saw her..She was his world...he ran towards her and hugged her so hard that he literally picked her up...she loved him so much..
she cried while she hugged him and he reassured her that he was never going to leave her...ever..

They had so much history...

Is she willing to let it all go for Mohd...

Mohd

Fahad

Mohd

Fahad

who will it be
who will she pick...


Only time can tell....

to be continued....

**** this post was really hard to write..its charged with raw emotions..and i hope u guys feel what i have felt..