8 things:p

ive been tagged by my lovely friend cupid..
love u cupid for your sweet words and comments that make my day:* h
extra hugs n kisses for u


8 things im looking forward to:
1. falling head in heels in love and him loving me back MORE
2. going to lebanon in the summer
3. getting a promotion at work *enshalaaaaa ya rab
4. getting married or any of my beautiful sisters getting married
5. the weekend: i need my beauty sleep
6. getting thinner (since im dieting);p
7. having LONGER hair (its near my target now;p)
8. reading celebrity gossip blogs:P

8 things i wish i can do:
1. be anywhere at any given time
2. open my own boutique
3. finding the ONE and settling down
4. doing my masters in D.C
5. not being too nice to ppl and being taken advantage of
6. go back to the 1950s and kiss Omar al Sherif
7. fall in love at first sight
8. owning houses all over the world: paris,london,spain

8 things i love:
1. my family
2. my grandmother allh yer7ma who i think of all the time
3. my best friend from 20 yrs(mshalla..hehe allh e5aleha ley enshala)
4. my blackberry hehehe
5. my hair:p
6. sleeping
7. DUBAI
8. dancing like a manic in the car and cruising:P

8 things i did yesterday:
1.buy a gift
2. chatting online
3. asking advice from a friend abt my love situation
4. take an afternoon nap
5. having a long fone call
6. calming down a friend who was having a mini nervous breakdown
7. wishing for something GREAT to happen
8. watching house

8 shows i watched:
1. gossip girl
2.house
3. 90210 -yawn
4. friday night lights -LOVE
5. one tree hill - LOVE LOVE
6. grey's anatomy - so sad
7.dirty sexy money
8. heroes

8 bloggers i LOVE and tag..
1. Cupid
2. M
3.love:**
4. fxyz
5. a*mode
6. dazzlin
7. cute and cuddly
8.3anooda

damn luck!

ive been laying low for a while
things haven't been going as expected..

we started off again beautifully.. me and fahad..
things were going more than amazing..
it was a dream come true..
but i guess it was just a dream..
and i woke up..

let me tell u what happened..

on a regular day..
fahad called me up..
we were just talking...
really
very casual..
he was out with his dad..
so he had to go..

his dad was super conseravtive and didnt know about us
his mom was the cool one..
she knew all along abt us
and pretty much knew our histroy since high skool..

so im bored at home..
listening to music..
putting on my nailposh..
i decide to send Fahad a cute msg..
just a simple msg..

"miss u..kisses"

i get no response..
thats weird..
one hour
two hours
three hours
four hours..
now i panic...
i mean i know its just four hours..but fahad is the type of guy who calls n texts a lot..

then late at night..
around 12ish i get a call from him...

he seemed weird
pissed
really pissed..
"fahad baby eshfeek 7agernii elyoum"
fahad: y3ni sij mat3rfeen shno swaitay elyoum
im stunned by his harsh tone..
his attitude
his anger

what did i do..


fahad coninues: do u know that my dad read ur stupid msg
i tense up..
who is he to call my msg stupid..
i stay quiet..
i didnt know what to say

he continues: y3ni u know i was with my dad..laish u send a msg..
i cut him off and say: o why wud he check ur fone min bed kil elayam..
y3ni how would i know..and why are u so mad..

fahad ignores me and continues: do u know how embaressed and little u made me infront of my dad..
he got so mad at me..
he told me to end this between us
he doesnt want me to lead on girls..

here i feel as if my body was boiling..
i was PISSED..
so mad...
i cut him off rudely: listen..first of all, im not any girl..i am ur girl..u said u want me as ur wife..
why couldnt u just tell ur dad that..its not like i sent the msg on purpose..

fahad: chofay yara..my dad is right.. i shouldnt be doing this..i cant marry you a9lan

even though i was crying at this point i didnt want to let him know..
: look if u want to let go of me this quick hay shay raje3 lak..ana i just sent a msg..3ady..its not like it was on purpose..ur the the one that came back to me..ur the one who started things..
what do u think i am a game to u
why do u keep playing with me
im not your F----KIG puppet fahad..
youm ull mary me
youm ur scared from ur dad o u dont want me anymore

so ur leading me on..
so i guess im the stupid one right..

listen ill make it easy for u
i will not call u or msg u again..
happy?
dont worry about ur dad reading ur msgs anymore..

fahad was stunned....
taken back by yara's anger
and honesty,,
was he really treating her like his own personal yo-yo..

he was quiet..
yara: i need to go..
(i couldnt hold my tears any longer)..

damn my luck..

why did u come back and break my heart all over again..

this killed fahad..
he wanted to think of what to say to fix it,,
he couldnt think of anything..

yara: bye..take care
i didnt even wait for a bye..
and just shut it..

2 seconds later
i get a msg
" its so rude that u didnt wait for me to say bye"

NO RESPONSE..
i ignore..

i literally cry my eyes out
sobbing
i called the first person to come to my mind
my best friend
and child hood friend
and tell her what had happened..

he was an ass
a coward
scared of his dad


do i really want to be with someone like that..


until next time:*