missing You...

it was late 2004..
Aliyah called him up..she had to hear his voice..
They talked everyday..
She wasnt about to let him go
Even if he was...

She called..waiting..one ring..two ring..
fahad: aloo
Aliyah: hi baby
Fahad: aliyah pls dont make this harder..why r u still calling me
Aliyah: fahad..ur my family eshlon i just stop talking to u..
Fahad: ok talk to me bs pls dont make this harder then it already is...

Aliyah couldnt take this anymore..
She started crying..
bawling like a baby..
She couldnt breath..
She had a headache frm cying so much..
She told him: i gotta go..talk to u some other time..i cant...Fahad cut her off..
her tears alwys get the best of him
" 7beebty..tekfain...dont cry..pls baby dont cry..3wartay galby..
Aliyah's heart meleted
He still loved her..
Hearing those sweet words were all she needed to get thru this dreadful night without being his girlfriend anymore
To her, the world had no meaing..
She truly believed thAt
He's the one
He was alwys the one for her
Till today..she refers to him as the one that got away...*Sigh*
He knew her inside out
He knew everything about her..everything..her family..her friends..her likes..dislikes..her mood swings..what to say..
Fahad alwys knew what to say and when to say it..
He had the magic touch with her..
She closed her eyes..and tried to visualize him..
The last time they met..
The last time they kissed
She didnt think it was going to be their last kiss
She wished she knew back then...
She wanted to remember every little detail..but her memory failed her..

She sighed heavily...as if her heart was too heavy for her to carry..
Fahad: esmila 3laich min elaaahhh..pls aliyah latsween feeh ro7ich chethe...3warty galby..plsss
Aliyah: im so sorry..i dont know what got into me..wala mat3arf eshkether welhat 3ala 9outik..
mat3arf.walah..elee 9ar mo ebyady..
Fahad couldnt take this anymore..He felt at ease with her..will he ever feel this with another girl..when he talks to her he loses the ability to think straight..she still had that effect on him..should he just cut her out completly..he couldnt do that...she was afterall..a big part of his life and still is..but not romantically anymore..he was set with his descion..there was no going back...
Aliyah continued: Fahad..just talk..i just want to hear your voice..
Fahad felt as if he was melting little by little as she said the cutest thing to him..
Fahad: eshtbene agol y3ni.mmm....3ndee group meeting in a bit..o i have this essay to hand in about bahrain goverement for my politics class..
As Fahad began talking about his day to day isssues..Aliyah just listened..to his voice..not to what he was saying..she was mezmirized by it..
He was the voice she had to hear before going to bed..it was a rule they had..she told him earlier in their realtionship that she cant sleep without hearing his voice and its true..
you cant imagine how hard it is to sleep without it now...trust me you cant imagine...

Fahad excused himself and Aliyah went to bed exhausted..not physically but mentally and emotionally..
she was drained out..she had cried her eyes out..and she still had a headache..
she reached for her dresser and got two panadol pills..and waited for its effect..

while she was waiting..she looked for his perfume..she sprayed the scent on her pillow..she loved doing that..as odd as that was..she felt closer to him.she felt like he was there with her still..

This was bad..
She had never been this depressed in her life..
She was seriously losing it..
she was isolated and felt so alone in this world...

Aliyah kissed his picture goodnight..her favorite one..of him in starbux wearing her armani exchange baby blue hat...
She switched off the light..

she was Praying for things to be better in the morning..
" dear god..please let him come back to me.."

it was so sad..
Aliyah went to bed with tears in her eyes..

She wanted him back
She had to have him back..



**post dedicated to my Fahad..miss u still after all these years..